What's the point anymore!

I am starting to wonder if running all these poker games and organization is really worth it. Back in 2003 this all started as a promotion to try and get new people in my bowling center bar. Since then the law has been changed, I have organized and sold a bar league company (Free Poker Tour), owned a poker magazine (FultTilt Magazine), kind of owned an online poker site (Redfish Poker), sold my bowling centers, and now have formed a local poker organization (CMPPA). I have played in many poker events for various buy in amounts and played countless hands of bar poker. I consider myself to be a slightly above average poker player with good people reading skills. Poker has been good to me. Lately, I have been feeling like there is no purpose to my poker play and running tournaments. At first running bar tournaments was a great way to introduce new players to hold em and my goal was to create a casino like experience at the bar, so players would feel comfortable if and when they wanted to make the jump to cash tournament play. Later it became more of a second job as income to my family. Not that it is a big amount, but it would pay for one small trip per year or a tournament buy in. I suppose that all go though a period where they question what they are doing and why. Lately my bar games in Clearwater have had declining attendance. Some of it I blame on the lack of customer service from the bar itself and some on the tightness that I run my poker games, but mostly I blame the poor quality play and players that the game has been attracting. As a person that tries to teach players to be better it is difficult to believe that after over 2 years that the play is worse there then it was at the beginning. I do understand that over time players lose interest in bar poker or their lives change and they must change what they do with their free time and disposable income, but come on. No one seems to want to improve their play. On top of that the low numbers and lack of spending by the players that are showing up is making the bar consider whether it should continue with Texas hold-em as a promotion. I also question whether I want to continue the games because of the lack of quality of play. Last night as an example, was won by a women that we call one of the Sea Hags, I know it's not nice to call people names and she is a very nice lady, but she has played holdem for several years now and has no interest in improving her game or change her style. She is the type of player that will play any suited cards or any ace or king to the river and she is definitely a card catcher. At the beginning of 1st break I made a comment about her playing every hand and of course she denied it. I had kept track and she had only folded 3 times preflop for one hour and managed to win enough hands to keep a big stack. Late in the tournament, she called a big raise preflop with 8-3 off and took a player out. At the time she was far from pot committed to play, so she had only played because she likes that hand. Another women with almost the same style ended up taking me out when I had raised preflop from under the gun with K-Q off. Flop was K-Q-6 rainbow. I move all. Next player calls and she calls. Turn is a spade, both check. River is also a spade bring 3 spades ob board. 1st player checks, she moves all in and he calls. I have two pair, he has a set of queens and she turns over a flush with K-J of spades. She went runner runner to win. I can't believe that a set of queens didn't bet her out after he had flopped it. When I asked her why she had played the hand she said that she thought that she had the best hand after the flop. I am seeing this kind of play get rewarded week in and week out over in Clearwater. I believe that it is because if so many player play that same way that one or more will be catching on any given night. So, what does this do for us that are trying to improve our play. I think nothing. As a player you always need to change your game to the table that you are on and I think that I do. It's just not that much fun to always have the best hand and always come up on the losing end. The options for me are to go there and make the best of it each week, stop playing and just run the tournaments or try and find a new location with new or better players. I am just not sure if my interest level is still there. The CMPPA is still growing and the play at these events is much better and most of the time fun to play. The problem I see is that it grows so does the amount of members that are the type of players that I am growing sick of playing with in Clearwater. It may just be time for me to move on to another form of entertainment and 2nd income. It is painfully obvious that there is not enough income from bar poker anymore for my to do this for a living. Had I not owned two bowling centers at the beginning I think that the Free Poker Tour could have grown into a large organization such as the Free Poker Network and been my long term future job. Had the government not chased a whole bunch of online poker sites out of the US, most of which were Fult Tilt Magazine advertisers, such as Party Poker and Poker Host. They left owing the magazine thousands of advertising dollars and put it out of business. Who knows where that could have lead. Now it is the CMPPA. Is it just another missed opportunity or is it just the beginning. I am not getting any younger and the ambition level is fading. So we will see what happens. Maybe all will become clear soon or maybe I just need to go and play a casino tournament with higher skilled players or maybe just a good old fashion night of intoxication! Sorry this has went so long! Thanks for listening!